Job!!

Well, I GOT A JOB!!!!! :D I had an interview today at Orange Julius & I got hired right on the spot. I'm so happy! (: I start Monday.. :D Life is so good. This is a really quick post, but I don't care. Just had to share it:)

Summer 2012

It's July..... Woah! :o My 10th grade school year has been over for about a month now & my Summer is going great! (: 10x's better than what I expected!! :D I'm making it 100x's better than last Summer & it's working. Been out of the house alllll the time with my friends, been making new friends like crazy, been at the beach all the time getting tan as fuuuck, & I've been just so happy. It's amazing.. My life has changed so much. I met this guy on my birthday (May 10th) & we started dating on May 22nd. His name is Yan & we've been together ever since & I'm glad we decided to go for it & date:) He's my everything. I swear. 1 month & 2 weeks with him & he's changed me. Changed the way I think, changed the way I act, & changed the way I feel. It's amazing. You wanna know the best part about it? (: He's Russian. 100% My dream came true bitches! ;D I'm dating a Russian & will be for awhile;) He treats me so well. Like gold.. I just love it. Never thought I'd find one like him. (: Anyways..... updating from my last blog post, I ended up having to stop stretching my ears because I had ANOTHER reaction.. -_- Freaking weird. I don't get it! WHYYYY?! I want to stretch them soooo bad! ): My best friend is at a 4g.. holy shit. I'm so jealous.. She's got all the ear piercing I want. She's got her cartilage pierced (did it herself), a second piercing (did THAT herself too), & her stretched holes.. Gaaaah she's so lucky.. I've been wanting to pierce my tongue & belly button for quite some time now, but I don't think the tongue will ever be happening anytime soon.. Bf doesn't like it & my mom would FLIP the fuck out.. -.- The belly button? Well.. I just gotta find an 18 year old that will take me lmao which perhaps might have to be Yan since he's 18 (; lmfao I think it'd look fricken cute. I;m just the right size & IDK I just think they look good(: Yan wouldn't mind:) Uhhhhh... sooo... I think that's about it! (: Lifes been really good lately. Have a good Summer 2012 everyone! (Whoever reads this pointless shit on my blog ahahaaa xP) Be happy & stay happy! :) Don't let other people bring you down. Be yourself no matter what. Party it up & stay high biznitches! PEACESKIES! ;D

WOAH HELLO THERE!

WELL HELLO THERE READER! ...hooooly tits I haven't updated this piece of shit in a looong ass time! :o Uhhhh life's been 50% great & 50% shitty as fuck. School is stressing me out SO fucking bad these days.. I honestly just wanna say 'fuck it' & quit, but I can't... My summer will be shit if I don't stay on track & get my shit done. I'm done in the C's... /: 6 classes. 1 A 1 B & the rest C-'s... ): UGH! It's crazy. It's stressing just thinking about it. Stretching my ears! (: At a 12g right now since I had to start over because APPARENTLY i'm allergic to acrylic. My ears had a bad nasty reaction & I had to wait for them to heal & the holes closed up.. /: I was at an 8g too! D:< Grrr.. Uhhh Lately, music & writing have hit me haaard! (Meant to put a heart, but this goddamn stupid blog text shit won't let meee! >.<) Like, I've literally been writing & listening to music non stop all day everyday. It's an amazing feeling. Blah i'm so tired I don't really want to finish this.. /: Okay BYE MOTHER FUCKERS! Smoke weed & stay strong biznitches(;

I don't even fucking know anymore..

Well, Lately I have been feeling empty, down, lonely, tired allll the time, depressed? No, idk what to call this feeling, but It does NOT feel good at all. I deleted somebody off of facebook today and I feel stupid for doing it.. He barely ever wants to talk to me anymore because were so far from eachother (He lives in Denmark) and he met someone that is now his girlfriend that he's 'in love' with.. I don't like it at all, but whatever. He made me smile so much and made me feel sooo good as a person. So special. So loved. Now? I feel.. the opposite. I'm trying not to let it get to me so bad, but my mind and heart and just working together to make me feel like this. Anyways.. I wanna leave this place. Go somewhere new. Meet some new people and change my lifestyle a little bit. Meet a guy that fits my needs. I know i'm young and only 15, but every 15 year old girl wants this.. I know it! People tell me "Oh, you'll find someone in the future" but that's the 'future'.. I really don't like waiting for the future! /: But whatever.. I gotta live with it I guess.. Well, i'm going back to bed.

Update!

Sooooo, this is just a quick update on life right now. I haven't been posting anything lately because i've been reeeaaally busy with school and life. Hahaha Life is literally going amaaazing right now! My sophmore year has pretty much been easy as fuck and it makes my life outside of school a lot more easier. I just started talking to someone I haven't been able to talk to for awhile because of bad things and complications in the past. It feels sooooo good. Knowing I have them back in my life completly changes everything and makes me happy! (: I'm at Britney;s house right now (My best friend) and i'm here till 5. I'm on her lap top just searching around on the internet, doing my homework at the same time. Hahaha I CAN'T GET NUMBER 15!!! It's impossible! I'm sooo stumped! This is wayyyy off topic, but if you actually read these posts, pleeaase comment on this. :/ I need to know if anybody is actually caring what I say and how I feel about things. I need to know if i'm wasting my precious time so I can maybe delete it.. Anyways, I gotta get this homework done before I leave here. Byee! (:

Update!

I haven't updated my blog in awhile.. :/ It's kinda hard to keep a promise to make a new post everyday when you're in school getting loaded up with SHIT LOADS of fucking hard homework! D: Anyways.. School is going good thankfully! I've had some ups and downs dealing with my thoughts and shit, but NO DRAMA!!! :D That was my biggest goal and it's accomplished so far! (: I got some sleeping pills for my insomnia too thanks to my amazing aunt that understands me problem! :) MY CHICKEN NUGGETS ARE DONE! Omg omg omg i'm soooo hungry..

Music!

Music is literally pretty much my life! My true friends and whole family knows that because I listen to it 24/7. No joke! They get soooooo annoyed. In fact, i'm listening to it as i'm writing this! (; I love everything but country and modern stuff. I hate the radio because all it plays are the same songs over and over and OVER! I hate it! And most of the crap isn't even music! Just a repeating beat and the same words repeated wayyyyy too many times. It's just plain out, straight up too damn annoying. I listen to the good stuff. The stuff no one really knows about so it makes it better when everyone doesn't talks about it alllll the time. I've had an ipod for about 3 or 4 years and i'm shocked it still works as much as I listen to it! I listen to it in the morning while i'm getting ready for the day and all day at school. Then I come home and plug it in my ipod dock after school and leave it on the rest of the day while i'm doing my homework, eating, checking my stuff on the internet, and when i'm going to bed. Whenever i'm in a great happy mood I have the right type of music for it. When i'm sad gloomy and depressed feeling, I have the right music to set that mood. Music is just so  dang AMAZING! It gets me through SO much stuff too! When i'm depressed and I write, I listen to it and it just makes me feel so mellow and chill. It gets my mind off of everything and puts me in my own amazing world where no one can bother me. I make music too. I write a lot of my own songs and I play them on my keyboard and acoustic guitar. I'll put a few of them on my blog sometime in the future. I've loved music since I was like 5 and I sing all the time. I honestly don't think I have a very good singing voice, but I sing my heart out anyways! <3 I could make this post so long, you'd wanna stop reading it right before the middle. Thats how much I love music! It really sucks though when I play my music out loud or I have my earbuds in all the time, my parents judge everything about it. I fricken HATE it with a passion. They put my music down in so many ways and it just tears me apart when they talk about my music like that. Just please accept my music and stop complaining about it and making me feel like crap alllll the time? Please? Thankss. :/ Anyways.. Thats pretty much it. I really do mean it though.. Music IS my life.. Forever and ever and never won't not be! <3